Kritika Part - 7

              "Kartik .. , Ye k..kyaaa halat bana rakha hai tu apna ? Ye chudiya , saree , blouse ye kya kya pehn rakha hai tum ne ? " - Dad ne gusse se pucha. Jis ka mere pas koi bhi jawab nehi tha. Dar se mere halat kharab ho rahi thi. Mere muh se ek bhi awaz nehi nikal pa raha tha . 

            "Abey tujhe kuch puchh raha hu me. Haann !! Ye sab ... Kya hai ye ? - Dad ne mere thobde ko pakar ke puchha. 

       - Wo dad me ... me woo.. ye... 

       - Kya wo me laga rakha hai haan ? Tujhe isliye bheja tha maine yaha ? Tujhe to.. Tujhe to apna beta bolne se ab sharm aati hai mujhe . 

      " Kya hua uncle , App itna gussa kyu kar rahe hain ? " - Piche se Disha aa kar pucha. 

        - Ye kya hai Disha , Tumhare jimmedari me maine chhoda tha ise. Ab ye sab mujhe kya dekh na pad raha hai aaj ? Hai koi jawab iska tumhatr pas ? 

      -Han han uncle . Shant ho jaye . Me apke feelings ko samajh sakti hu. Me aap ko bata ti hu shant ho jaye aap. 

     - Ab kya bataogi tum. Kis muh se ab me ghar lautunga ? Jab.. Jab is ki maa mujhe puchegi to me kya bataunga use ? Ki tumhara beta kinnar ban gya hai ? 

     - Arey uncle aap kyu itna tension le rahe ho ? Bas chhoti si hi baat hai. Ye uska punishment hai aor kuch nehi . 

     - Kya ? Punishment ? Kyu ? Kis wajah se ? To kya tum ne ise .....

    

      - Aor nehi to kya . Aap ko pata hai , Jab se ye aya hai na , Ek jagah pe nehi tikta. Boys hostel me Rahne ke liye ise problem ho raha hai rent me rahe to bhi ise problem hai . Maine ek baar ise yaha ghumane le ke aya tha aor pata hai isne bola me yahi rahunga. Ab women's hostel me hum ek larke ko kaise rakh sakte the aap bataye. 

      - Acha ! Par is baat ka kya punishment hai bhai ? Agar koi problem tha to tum mujhe call pe to bata sakti thi na ! 

   

       - Uncle me aap ko bata deti to aap ise ghar le jaate aor fir padhai ka kya ? Aor baat itna hi nehi. Apne iske jimmedari muj pe soupa tha . Hai na ? To mera ye duty hai ki me iska dhyan rskhu aap ko kyu pareshan karna. 

     - Nehi ye tum ne thik nehi kiya Disha . ab hum yaha ek pal bhi nehi ruk sakte . Aor tu kartik apna shaman pack kar aor chal ghar abhi. Aise bhi is janam me tera kuch nehi ho sakta. Koi jarurat nehi hai tujhe padhai ki. 

    - Iska kuch saman hoga to ye pack karega na ! 

     - Matlab ? 

     - Matlab he hai ki pichle mahine isne apne sare dress sab kuch fenk diya. Ise to ab larkio ke kapdo ka sauk jo lag gai hai.. 

         Dad ka gussa ab sar pe chadh gya. Unhone mere hath ko pakra ke khichte khichte hostel se bahar nikal laye. Poora ladies hostel ye tamasha dekh raha tha. Disha Dad ko rokne ki kosish bhi ki par dad nehi ruke. Me waise hi saree , chudiya jeweliarry pehen rakha tha aor dad mujhe khich khich ke main road tak le aye. Raste me sab log hume ghur ghur ke dekh rahe the. Gusse me dad poori tarah andhe ho gye the unka nazar road par nehi raha. Jab hum road cross kar rahe the Dad ko achanak se ek truck aa ke dhakka de diya. Wo thode dur me ja ke gire . Un kr sar se bhot tez khun nikal nr laga. Ambulance ane tak khun se poora rasta bhig gya tha. 

             Dad ko hospital liya gya . 7 din tak dad ka treatment chala . Uske baad doctor ne kaha ki sar pe gehri chot lagne k wajah sewo COMA me chale gye hain. Kab hosh ayega koi guaranty nehi hai. 1 weak ho gya tha Ye sab mere ghar me mom aor chhoti behen ko pata nehi tha. Mere pas apna phone nehi tha aor Dad ka phone accident ke time kahi gir gya tha. Me kuch bhi samajh nehi pa raha tha ki ab kya karu . Kaisr maa ko khabar du. Najane wo kitne pareshan ho rahi hogi. Aor upar se mera abhi ek bhi dress mere pas nehi tha . 

            Hospital me Dad ko admit karne ke bad se abhi tak Disha aor uske frnds ne meri bohot madad ki. Mujhe aor mere identity sab se chhupa ke rakha. Aor hamesha ke tarah tanya ne har din mujhe apna ek ek dailyuse dress aor inners pehen ne k liye de rahi thi. Na chahte huye bhi wo sab mujhe pehen na pad ta tha. Kyu ki mere pas ek bhi boys dress nehi tha. Mere sare kapde Sandhya aunty ke ghar me rah gya tha. To maine socha ki ab me waha jaa kar Unse request karu ki wo muje apne kapde bapas kar de. Par un ka ghar hospital se dur tha. Maine Disha ka madad lene k liye socha. Mujhe pata tha ki ab is situation me disha mana nehi karegi. Mujhe apne dress mil jaye to me ghar ja sakta aor mom ko bhi sari baat bata sakta tha. Disha man bhi gai aor mujhe apna bike me le kar Sandhya aunty ke ghar gai. Waha pahuch te hi me bike se utar ke ghar ke andar daud ke gya. Sandhya aunty kitche n me thi. "Aunty .. Aunty ,,, wo mera dress kaha hai. Please aunty wo sab mujhe de do.. " - Maine hichkhucha te huye un se kaha. Wo mujhe dekh kar pehle shocked ho gyi. Mujhe sar se pao tak akhe fad kar dekh ne lagi. 

Sandhya : Wow... Tum to ekdum se badal gai ho . Itne kam din me itni feminine kaise ban gai tum ? Sshalwear pehne ho , hath me chudiya , mang me sindur aor gale me mangalsutra. Wah Disha tum ne to ise sachi me apni sanskari biwi bana liya. 

Disha : Wo sab chhodiye aunty iska dress de di jiye ise . Bohot bada problem ho gya hai . Aor ise apne ghar jana hoga abhi. 

Sandhya : Kyu ? Aise kya ho gya ? 

Disha : Aunty iske dad ka accident ho gya hai ise apne ghar jana hai . Ap bas iske saman ise de dijiye hum baad me is bare me baat karte hain. 

Sandhya : Par wo sab to...

Disha : Kya hua wo sab ? 

Sandhya : Tum ne bohot late kar di Disha wo sab me ek bhikhari ko de diya . Par han iska cell phone hai mere pas. 1 min ruko me lati hu

 

         Kuch dair baad unhone mera phone aor naye kapde kharid ne ke liye kuch paise diye . Disha mujhe waha se le kar shopping kar ne ke liye gai . Par waha gents section ko chhor ke usne mujhe ladies section me le kar gai. "Mujhe yaha kyu laye ? Mujhe female dress nehi male dress kharidna hai " - maine use kaha. Wo thodi si smile ki aor age badhne lagi. Wo mere liye kai dress aor saree dekhne lagi . Ab mujhe bohot gussa aa raha tha . Ghar jane ke liye mere pas ek chance tha par wo bhi ab nehi milega . Ye sab pehen ke me kaise jau apna ghar aor mom ke samne. Thodi dair baad usne ek red colour ki banarasi silk saree seki .

Uske borders golden tha aor sparcle kar kar raha tha. Mujhe girls ke dress pehen na pasand nehi tha par jab me ye saree dekha to mujhe ek ajeeb sa feeling ane lagi jaise wo saree mujhe apne taraf khich raha ho. Maine Disha ko ye saree lene k liye han bol diya. Baki paiso se usne mere size ka bra aor panties le liya. 

       - Tumhe pata hai maine aisa kyu kiya ? Tumhe jeans ke badle saree kyu kharid ke di ? 

       - K..kyu ?

      - Kyu ki ab tumhe yaha se kahi nehi jana hai. Tumhare pas ab apna phone hai na . Ab call kar ke mom ko yaha bula lao. 

    - Thik hai . Par ye sare... ! 

     - Ye to Sandhya aunty ke taraf se tumhe gift hai. Waise jab tumhari mom yaha ayegi to us din tum yahi saree pehen na. 

    - Kyaaaa... dekho is saree k wajah se mere Dad ka aisi halat huyi hai. Ab mom ko me is se jyada dard nehi dena chahta hu . 

    -  Tum kya chahte ho kya nehi chahte ho is se mujhe koi fark nehi padta . Hum dono ke shadi ke baad pehlibaar tumhare mom apni beti aor damad se milne wali hai. Is liye tumhe to proper housewife ke tarah sajna hoga. Ye request nehi tumhare husband ka order hai. Okey.

Disha ke words me mujhe dar mehesus hua. Dad ke condition bhi ab thik nehi hai . Mujhe support karne wala ab yaha koi nehi hai. Jab Mom yaha ayegi to me un ke sath ghar bapas chala jaunga ye soch kar me Disha ki baato pe agree ho gya. Disha mujhe shoping mall se sidha hostel pe le kar aagai. Waha pahuchte hi maine bina dair kiyr Mom ko call kar diya. Wo Dad ke bare me sun ke bacho ke tarah fut fut ke rone lagi . Me unhe samjhane ki bohot kosish kiya par samjha nehi paya. Wo andar se jaise tut sa gai thi. Wo bas chahti thi jitne jaldi ho sake Dad se aa kar mile. Raat hone wali thi . Maine kisi tarah unhe raat me ghar se nikal ne se rok liya. Par mujhe ache se pata subah hote hi wo kisi bhi tarah yaha aa jayegi. 

   

           Me samajh nehi pa raha tha ki ab me kya karu. Ek taraf Dad hospital me behosh pade hai aor dushri taraf mujhe Disha ne puri tarah apni slave bana di thi. Ab me bapas apne purane life me laut pau ya nehi ye mujhe nehi pata tha. Aor upar se usne mujhe strictly warning diya tha ki kaal mom k samne mujhe Saree pehen kar hi jana hoga. Is se mom ko bhi shock lag sakti hai. Dad ko le ke wo itni dukhi hai agar mujhe aise dekhegi to kya hoga unka. Ye sab soch soch ke mera sar fat raha tha. 

            Agle din subah darwaja knock hua. Me darwaja khola to bahar Disha khadi thi . "Kya hua apni mom ko pickup karne nehi jaoge ? Ye lo aor jaldi se teyar ho jao. " - Usne mujhe kaha aor mere hath me wohi red colour ki saree , red embroidered blouse aor ek red petticoat thama di. 

Me bhi aor kya kar sakta tha uske gusse ke age meri nehi chalti . Sare saman le ke me bapas apne kamre me aageya . Me nahane ke liye bathroom me ja raha tha ki tab mera phone ring hone laga. Dekha to mom ka call tha. Kya kahu kya na kahu kuch mujhe kuchh samajh me nehi aa raha tha. Kuch dair sochne k bad maine call receive kiya.

       " Halo... Haloo.. Kartik beta , tere dad kaise hain ab ? Wo kaha hain ? Batao beta !! Dekh tu aise chup mat rah , mere dhiraj ka badh tut raha hai. " - mom ne pucha . 

         "M...mom me... me a. aa rahi hu aap ko lene .. I men aa raha hu . Aap wahi par rukna bas 10 minute ." - maine haklate huye kaha. 

          Bas itna bol ke maine call cut kiya aor fresh hone k liye bathroom chala geya . Ek deep bath lene ke baad me bahar aya . Bed par padi huyi saree ko kuch dair dekh ta raha . Pehenu ki na pehnu. Agar na pehnu to Disha aise bhi mom ko sab bata degi agar pehen ke maa se milne jau to mom ki halat kya hoga kuch pata nehi. Kisi bhi tarah mom ko to pickup hi krna hai unko rasta pata nehi hai . Male dress me to Disha mujhe bahar jane bhi nehi degi. Akhir me decide kiya ki pehen hi leta hu jo hoga age dekha jayega. 

                Maine apna cupboard se ek red colour ki silicon padded bra aor ek matching red panty nikala jo ki tanya ki thi. Usko pehen ne ke liye man to bilkul bhi nehi tha par mere pas time bhi bohot kam tha so maine use pehen liya . Bra ke andar kuch cottonstuffing krne ke bad blouse aor petticoat pehna . Blouse ka size thoda tight tha fir bhi kisi tarah adjust kr ke maine pehna . Fir Saree drape krna suru kiya. Ache se plates bana ke apne pallu ko blouse pe pin kiya. Fir mirror ke samne ja ke thodi bohot makeup kr liya . Itne din ke baad me is ladies hostel se bahar ja raha tha wo bhi aise getup me. Koi bahar mere upar has na de. Dar bhi bohot lag raha tha . Makeup karne ke baad table pe rakhe huye red bengles ko achi tarah set kar ke apne dono hath me pehen liya . Kan me bade bade jhumke aor nak me nathni pehna . Gale me necklace aor maglsutra pehna . Par ab bhi me kuch bhul raha tha. Han Sindur . Agar Disha mujhe bina sindur ke dekhegi to bohot gali degi wo hath bhi utha sakti hai. Bina kuch soche maine apne hairs ko kangi ke madad se dono taraf side kiya aor ek apne mang me sindur ka ek lambi line khich diya. Aor forehead par ek badi bindi lagaya . Gift me mili huyi kuch heels aor ladies sandal mere cupboard ke niche rakha hua tha . Usme se ek heel jo ki red aor white combo tha usko nikal ke pehen liya . Heels me khada hona bhi mere liye bohot muskil tha par baki chappals mere saree ke colours ke sath match nehi ho raha tha . Kuch dair mean 15 min se adha ghanta room me chal ke practice karne ke baad mujhe ab heels me puritarah comfort feel hua . Sab kuch khatam hone ke baad ab me ek complite newly married woman lag raha tha.

Pata nehi aj khud ko deh ke khud se hi shadi kar lene ki man kar raha tha aor panty ke andar se mere things me errection hone laga tha. Par pata nehi kya hua ek dum se wo jaise shant ho geya aor mujhe aise lagne laga ki jaise wo mere body ke andar ke taraf ja raha hai . Matlab dhire dhire chhota hota ja raha hai.

                   Mujhe kuch samajh nehi aa raha tha ki ye kya ho raha hai mere satha. Maine apni saree aor petticoat ko upar uthaya aor panty nikal ke dekha to me dang rah geya . Me believe hi nehi kar pa raha tha . Sach me ab mera pennis pehle he hisab se chhota ho geya tha. Me bas ek hi tak usko dekhe ja raha tha ki bahar se koi darwaja knok kiya. Me dhad se panty pehen ke saree aor petricoat ko thik kiya aor jaldi se ja ke darwaja khola . Dekha to Tanya bahar khadi thi . " Kyu bhabhi , badi tension me lag rahi ho.. Waise aj itni sa dhaj ke kaha nikli ho ? Ham ko bhi to bata do " - Usne chher the huye kaha . Mera muh sharm se lal ho raha tha . Muh se ek word bhi nehi nikal pa raha tha . " Ek baat batau kartik... sory kritika bhabhi , laal saree me to pura laal pari lag rahi ho. Acha wo sab bat chhoro ab ap ye dawai lo , haaan Dinesh bheya ne strictly kaha hai abhi ap ko ye khana hi padega fir jaha aap ka marji ja sakti ho " - Usne serious ho kar bola.

  " Par... mujhe to koi sardi bukhar nehi hai . Me bilkul thik hu fir ye dawai kis chiz ke liye . " - Me thoda sharmate huye us se pucha. 

       " Wo sab mujhe nehi pata . Mujhe jo ap ke patidev yani Dinesh bheya ne bola tha me ap ko bol diya ab ap ko to apne pati ke bare me achi tarah se pata hoga . Agar ap abhi ise nehi khaye na to me sikayat kar dungi apki fir " - Tanya ne kaha. 

         Tanya ki baat sun kar mujhe thoda ajeeb sa laga . Ye dawai kis chiz ke liye tha aor abhi kuch dair pehle jo mere sath hua i mean mere private part me jo problem hua wo kya tha . Kahi uska aor is dawai me koi link to nehi ? Hmm.. Sayad mere se pehle Disha ko ye bat pata tha isi liye to us ko thik karne ke liye dawai bheja hai . Par kaise ... Use kaise pata chala ... Mere pas jyada kuch soch ne keliye time bhi nehi tha . Udhar bus stop par meri mom chhoti behen ko le kar mera intejar ki hogi. Me jaldi se us tablet ko nigal liya fir Tanya ko Disha ke bare me pucha ki wo kaha hai. Kyu ki mujhe uske sath hi jana tha me aise akele bahar nehi ja sakti thi. 

       " Acha Dinesh bheya , Unhone kaha ki wo bus stop geye hai apni saas i mean ap ke mata shree se milne . Ap ko agar jana hai to ap auto rikshaw le sakti ho. " - Usne mere hath me kuch paise thama di aor chali gai . 

             Mera to halat sukh geya. Maine as pas ghum ke dekha koi bhi nehi tha. Mujhe koi na koi ek sathi chahiye tha jo mere sath bahar jaye . Ek larka jab saree pehen ke bahar niklega to log to hasenge hi . Pura ijjat mitti me mil jayega mera . Par aor koi chara bhi tha nehi. Udhar Disha bhi mom ke pas pahuch chuki hogi sor wo mere bare me mom ko kya kya boli hogi ye sab soch ke mera tension aor bhi badh geya. Nehi kuch bhi ho mujhe jald se jald mom ke pas pahuchna hi hai. Me dhire dhire kadam age badhaya . Hostel ke sicurity ko mere bare me sab kuch pata tha to usne bina kuch bole gate khol diya . 

           Ab me public place par aa chuka tha. Mere pure body sihar utha. Koi mujhe pehechan na le is dar se maine apne sar ko ghunghath ke madad se dhak liya .

Mere pairo me payal ki cham chham awaj aor bajuo me chudio ki khankhanahat kai logo ke dhyan mere taraf akarshit kar raha tha. Tez dhup aor sunshan sadak par mere heels ke ahat kai dur tak sunai de raha tha . Chai ke tapri par baithe kuch naujaban mere taraf dekh dekh ke apas me kuch baat chit kar rahe the. Mere body se jaise adha jaan nikal geya tha. Me ye soch raha tha ki kahi koi mere pas na aajaye. Me baar baar ghungath se apna chehra chhupa raha tha aor dheere dheere age badh raha tha. 

To be continued ....

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